Borderline: Part 1.

I believe I may be borderline. In other words, I believe I may be suffering from borderline personality disorder (BPD). It’s possible I may not be. I intend on arriving at an educated determination one way or the other.

What is Borderline Personality Disorder?

From MindDisorders.com: “Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a mental disorder characterized by disturbed and unstable interpersonal relationships and self-image, along with impulsive, reckless, and often self-destructive behavior.”

The full article on BPD is located here: http://www.minddisorders.com/A-Br/Borderline-personality-disorder.html.

My Take.

A cursory review of symptoms and exploration of diagnosed borderlines’ experiences have caught my attention as I identify with both. I have enough in common with borderlines as to give me impetus to learn more and decide if I should seek a professional opinion.

Even if I do not qualify for a diagnosis with borderline this exploration into the matter of personality disorders has provided perspective on my personal struggle with mental/emotional/spiritual disease. I’ve shined the light on a number of issues I was unaware of before I started looking into personality disorders. For this, I am grateful.

Understand, my life is in disarray. It has been for some time. Even when things go way it’s been like walking a tightrope. So at this point I think this calls for a broader exploration into what it is I’m dealing with.

Purpose of This Series.

There are five (5) motivating factors in my creating this series of writings:

1. To take a hard look at my life experience and behaviors to see if they warrant requesting a diagnosis from a qualified mental health professional;
2. To show people what I’m talking about when I say: “I believe I may be borderline;”
3. To support me in therapy and recovery;
4. For catharsis;
5. To assist others facing their quest for well being.